The Sunday Currently Vol.14

Mark this day: this is my first time to do some long distance running, well jogging, or is it semi-running? Either waaaaaaay, I have pushed myself way beyond my limit. And I have only eaten one banana because I didn’t expect such workout.

For your information, that was a total of 7 kilometers. 7 freaking kilometers. This is why I don’t participate in fun runs because I’m not really a fan of running in general. So, I guess you could say I got a glimpse of what it feels like to be in a true running event.

Not fun at all.

And it’s official, no more lazy Sundays to me. Well, since a couple of months back, my Sunday mornings are officially loaded. No more waking up late or being lazy in general (well, at least until after our international race in Malaysia). What I’m not liking with this scenario is that we train under the intense heat of the sun. And you know how hot it can get around 9 or 10 AM. This is why I cover myself from head to toe because I don’t want to get burnt.

Now, I had to cancel some plans because I’m too tired to leave the house again. And besides I have to attend a family dinner or as I’d like to call, protein-loading with the fam.

READING

I’m reading a manga called Relife. Yep, I’m settling with these works of fiction because it’s easier to read and I guess faster. But stiiiiiill, I’m hoping to get out of my reading slump.

WRITING

Yeah, no excuses, I should really get back on my writing. Just because I’m in a writing slump, doesn’t mean I should stay there and then berate myself to get out of it.

LISTENING

The loud TV from upstairs and the audio from the game my sister’s playing from her mobile.

THINKING

My mind’s still stuck with this morning’s land training aka the 7-kilometer jog slash run.

WISHING

I really, really, really wish that I could just magically remove all my excess weight so that I can reach my target before the international race.

HOPING

From today’s training session, I really hope I can polish my technique. It sucks that every time I thought I was doing well, there’s something new to correct. So, here’s hoping that I get better in the few remaining sessions before the race.

WEARING

My Coldplay shirt which was supposed to be worn when I went to their concert in Singapore but ended up wearing something else (I guess the print was dead giveaway making it look like a knockoff). And this pair of distressed denim shorts, the last pair that fits me right (everything else has become loose now).

NEEDING

I think I need another round of massage. It was such wrong move to do it last Friday. But hey, it’s free. Who am I to turn down such offer??

FEELING

Sore in random body parts. This area near my tailbone is making it hard hard for me to lie down. And there’s something uncomfortable by my nape area. And, oh, I think a leg cramp is coming to my right calf.

DAYDREAMING

When the crushie said, “How dare you..”

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The Sunday Currently is originally from Siddathornton

The Sunday Currently Vol. 13

Lazy Sundays are just a thing in the past now, for me, that is. Gone were the days where I can wake up late, eat junk, do nothing be productive with my other stuff, or just waste time in the Internet.

My Sundays start early like I leave the house at 4:30 in the morning. This is because of my dragonboat training, by the way. And Sunday was an additional day because there’s an upcoming race outside the country.

Since trainings can get intense, it’s a struggle to stay alive and alert after the session. I can easily sleep inside a bus or jeepney. And today was no different. Though, I didn’t get to take a nap, I spent my whole afternoon lying on the sofa with my phone perched on my stomach watching Brooklyn Nine Nine.

READING

Nothing as of the moment. But I know, I know I really should resume my reading.

WRITING

Nope I have not given up on my writing just yet.

I will be writing this minutes of meeting, I guess that counts.

LISTENING

The sound of night.

Nope, too corny. Just listening to the hum of the a/c

THINKING

It’s pecha de peligro again, how am I going to make it til Friday??

WISHING

I really wish I have a car right now.

HOPING

Will be trying to commute going to training starting Tuesday to cut my transpo expenses. Using Grab twice a day and for 3-4 times a week is just too much. So, here’s hoping I can manage my finances better after taking this step.

WEARING

This grey shirt that says “I survived Sagada” and my trusty yellow PE shorts from UST.

NEEDING

My allergic rhinitis has come and go for the past few days. And I think it’s because of my sleeping pattern. So I need to fix my sleeping habit because I really neeeeeed to give my body rest.

FEELING

A bit sluggish

CRAVING

Maybe because I’m cutting down my salt intake and trying to lose some weight, I’m craving for some good, ole samgyupsal.

The Sunday Currently is originally from Siddathornton

The Sunday Currently Vol. 12

Tired from dragonboat training. And kind of feel bummed with my performance. While I take the training not as intense as my other teammates, it dawned on me that I really should take our training reallyyyy seriouslyyyy.

Oooor, I may have just high expectations of myself. I’m well aware of how slow my progress is with basically anything. And dragonboat is not an exception. I just feel so irritated with myself because I’m finding it difficult to will my body to what my mind has dictated. Haaaaaaaaaaay, I just want to do well. How do I do that, please?

READING

Reading break. Period.

WRITING

I wrote this short story a few days ago. Funny thing was, it was written spontaneously because I wanted to do some free writing. It turned out well, I guess.

LISTENING

Random chatter from people beside me. And some singing.

THINKING

My derp face posted in my dragonboat team group chat. It was too candid. And I looked possessed by some spirit.

WISHING

I wish I could delete that photo. Hahaha, I know, I know I’m making it a big deal.

HOPING

I hope to get back to my usual writing routine this week or weekend.

WEARING

White shirt and a blue pants (one of the two pants that fits me)

NEEDING

I need to get back to my usual writing routine this week or weekend.

FEELING

A bit bummed because I thought I was already doing well with the dragonboat thing, but I guess not.

CRAVING

I just had milk tea and I’m still craving for some more (screw gastro)

The Sunday Currently is originally from

Siddathornton

Coffee and You

Amazing how our once shared favorite pasttime will turn out to be my most painful memory.

The smell of the coffee every time I passed by a cafe or coffee shop makes me sick to my stomach now. Because every passing scent only reminded me of you.

Something that we can never revert to how it was because you chose to leave. Never mind how much I called your name as I watched you walk away. You turned a deaf ear to my cries and you just let me crumbled down to the ground.

And now on this rainy afternoon, I’m all alone. With a cup of coffee…

It has gone cold now. Just like how its lingering aroma drifted through the wind, pieces of you in my memory slowly slipped away.

No more coffee for me.

I’m practicing my writing because I want to check if I can still do it. Because I feel the rust and the effect of taking such a long break from writing. Sooooo, I don’t know if what I wrote above is good enough for someone who went back to square one. Oh well, I guess still have a long way to go.

Panitik At Ako

I’m always filled with excuses. And worst is, I almost always justify whatever excuse I made. It’s really sad to come to a point wherein I have to constantly give out whatever lame reason I have over something (whether it’s something to do or somewhere to go).

Where am I getting at?

Last month I made this some kind of a declaration to myself: that I will postpone all my writing projects to give way for this event for the community. After all, this event took so much out of my time that I barely have time to do something for myself. Because I know myself. No matter how much I want to multitask, it’s not going to produce anything above satisfactory level. And, of course, I don’t want that to happen to my writing project/s.

So now a month has passed. Aaaaand, I haven’t updated my writing project. The most productive thing I did for this project was taking out my notebook with the story outline from my drawer and read the last thing I wrote. Then after a few hours, I returned it back to the drawer.

Sad.

And yet here I am complaining about this “rust” in my writing.

I don’t know if I need some kind of an intervention or something, but what I know for sure is that I need to do something to get me off this long writing break. I cannot wait for inspiration or motivation to strike me because if I do that, who knows when will I get off from this writing slump.

Looks like I’ll need to do some free writing to declutter my mind.

Since I decided to make this writing thing a long-term goal, well, I better step up. It’s bad enough that I barely update my blog; it’s even worse that I let my writing project be on standby for a long time.

Soooo, a double slap for me to wake me up. Because I honestly don’t know what I’m going to do if I let this one go, or worst, quit. I’ve invested so much time and effort with my writing projects that it’ll be such a shame to just quit.

I feel like as if I’ll be back to square one. But to be honest, it’s okay. At least, I’m writing.

So I guess, this should serve as a restart for myself. Time to get serious. And, of course, as always I won’t forget to have fun.

The Sunday Currently Vol. 11

Hahaha, it’s been like 2 weeks or so since the last time I wrote something for this series. I’m glad to be back, though (partly because, currently, the room is so nice and cool and I just got up from a refreshing nap, so my whole system is relaxed and feeling a bit productive).

Anyway, we have Sunday trainings now soooo, I’m not allowed to stay too late on Saturday evenings 😑. Yeah, I know, boo 👎. But at the same time, I know I need it.

So now my weekend mornings are fully booked (well, just for a couple of months, though *haha, just until after our international race).

READING

Okay, I know my reading progress is snail-paced. Buuuuuut, I’m glad to share that the current book I’m reading (yes, it’s still Here’s Looking at You), I’m halfway doooone! That’s quite a feat for someone who’s in a reading slump. I actually quite enjoyed the book. Though, I must admit, I’m still having a hard time trying to understand British humor. Some I get, some not so much.

WRITING

Still on a writing slump. My writing tools are still “boxed” despite what I said on the last volume. (My current writing struggles will be share on a different post 😗)

LISTENING

The hum of the air conditioner. And the faint sound of cars passing by from the next subdivision.

THINKING

How to polish my paddling technique. Honestly, it tends to get frustrating whenever I commit the same mistakes and to actually see it on video 😫.

WISHING

I’m wishing for some milktea now. And burger. And, oh, fries from potato corner.

HOPING

With my financial going down the drain, here’s hoping that I can make it through until the next payday. (*why is it always like this? 😤)

WEARING

This blue shorts from uniqlo that is becoming my favorite because it’s so comfy. And a vneck blue shirt. Plus, I’m wearing this bra that made me look more even flat-chested, nyar 😅

NEEDING

Because my mind is feeling a little productive today, here’s a list:

  • Moolah
  • Massage
  • Lose some weight
  • Start my writing project again
  • Someone in my life 🤣

Alright, the last one was a tad bit TMI.

FEELING

A little sore. It’s a mix of different kind of pain. I have this chafing on my left thigh, and it stings when it comes into contact with anything. I also have this cluster of bruises on my right thigh because of the workout yesterday. My back and shoulder are in pain too, I guess because of my heavy backpack.

And oh, hungry as well. That meaty wonton mami from Chowking has long been gone.

DAYDREAMING

My 3-second moment with the happy crush 😄

The Sunday Currently is originally from Siddathornton

Saturdays in My City – 4

This.

The weather has been weird for the past couple of weeks. So it has been a struggle to do boat training. Forget the rain, it’s more of going against the wind. And strong winds mean waaaavesss 🌊🌊🌊.

But despite all that, I’m proud to say that we chose to be stronger and fought through it. Just look at those clouds, though.

(Yet, at the back of my mind I was a bit scared of those waves) 😑

The Sunday Currently Vol. 10

Quiet Sunday today. And it’s a feat! Although I know I’m supposed to do some personal errands for a wedding this Saturday, I’m too lazy to move. Heck I haven’t even had a proper meal yeat. I only had 2 bowls of cereal and that was it; I’m too lazy to prepare a real meal.

Maybe because yesterday was exhausting because of this event for the community. And now it’s taking its toll on me.

Got nothing better to do except to alternate my facebook, twitter, and instagram browsing (sometimes including youtube). Lazy Sunday indeed.

READING

Haven’t finished anything. And you’ll hear me constantly whine about this. Sorry. But here’s hoping that I stay true to my word that I’ll revive my reading habit.

WRITING

Soooo, it’s Day 1 post CYP event. And I promised myself that I’ll focus on my project and some writing assignments after that event. Okay, will be unboxing my writing tools once again.

LISTENING

Everything’s quiet at home actually, that I can only hear the whir of our electric fan, my sister laughing to some youtube video, my dad’s loud snoring, and my other sister’s incessant coughing.

Hmmmmm, so it’s not exactly quiet…

THINKING

The unresolve issues we still have within the community. *sigh I really hope that we get this done and over with. I need peace.

And where did I place my shoes (the one that I’ll use for the wedding on Sat)??

WISHING

I wish I could magically remove my excess weight so that I won’t need to diet.

HOPING

Since I have to diet, number one advice to me is to not eat rice and white bread. And within a month, definitely I’ll be able to shed some pounds. Sooo, I’m hoping that I’ll be able to to stick to this diet routine.

WEARING

I’m in my last night’s clothes because since it’s a Sunday I didn’t bother changing at all. So, I’m wearing a very short blue boxer shorts and a blue fake Ralph Lauren t-shirt.

NEEDING

I need to control myself when it comes consuming sugary stuff. And I need to stop this mentality that just because it’s a small piece of candy or chocolate, it’s safe to consume few pieces. Yeah, that’s wrong.

And I’m saying this because there’s a big bag of chocolate inside the fridge. Need to exercise extreme self-control.

FEELING

I’m hungry. That cereal has long been gone.

Also feeling groggy. Didn’t get to sleep in because I need to take my medicine.

CRAVING

For some junk.

The Sunday Currently is originally from Siddathornton

The Sunday Currently Vol. 9

I can’t complain much about this weekend. But I just wish that I’ve no work tomorrow. And to think I didn’t go to work lasr Friday because of the inclement weather. I don’t know, maybe because I didn’t get to have a full rest this weekend. (If you’re going to read between the lines, basically, all I’m saying is: I just want to sleep and not go to work tomorrow).

READING

I bought something from a pile of “Book Dates” by Biblio. The idea is, in order to avoid juding a book by its cover, all the books are wrapped w/ paper. You only get few hints written on the wrapping paper, but TBH, they barely give away anything. Anywaaaaaaay, I got “Here’s Looking at You” by Mhairi Mcfarlane.

I know what you’re all thinking: I’m barely finished with the Subtle Art blah blah, and here I am finishing my recent buy. Well, it’s kind of usual for me to read at least 2 books simultaneously. But of course, no abandonement for other read.

WRITING

Something for the community.

But for someone who is in a writing slump, I noticed I’ve been doing some “required writeups” outside my projects.

LISTENING

The water running from the bathroom. The baby sister is taking a bath with the door open (*gasp)

THINKING

Will I get infected if it’s really a splinter that got stuck in my right palm? I’m not even sure what it really was.

WISHING

I wish for longer weekends.

HOPING

For calm weather for this week. There’s a race this Saturday and we’ll be needing all the practice days we could get.

WEARING

This blue top from Uniqlo which I’m sure is also owned by a quarter of the population of NCR. Aaaaand this pair of gray pants which I last wore 2-3 years ago now it fits me miraculously again 🙌

NEEDING

Moolah.

WANTING

Sleep in

FEELING

A little hyped up. *We just watched this local musical called “Ang Huling El Bimbo.” It was 👍👍👍

LSS-ing

Ang Huling El Bimbo by Eraserheads.

The Sunday Currently is originally from Siddarthornton

I Paddle Because I Have A Lot Of Feelings

I guess it’s considered long overdue but someone asked me why I’m still doing the dragonboat thing. Never mind my dramatic soliloquy about me getting into sports in general or how I love the idea of being competitive in our own way or even the feeling of fulfillment when committing myself in this kind of activity. Well, it’s that but when I think about it, it’s not actually the complete answer.

Why hold back then, you may ask. Well, the truth is, my reason is not really embarrassing or too noble; it’s actually simple. I’m just trying to avoid further prodding to whatever reason I’m going to give them. I can easily tell it to people close to me or if I’m in a serious conversation. But I don’t trust myself to say this casually.

I choose to stay and continue because I consider it my new outlet. (I can actually imagine in my head the reaction I’m going to get from people who don’t know me well :9)

A little segue just to connect some thibngs so hear me out first. As easy as we made it sound when we were younger the idea of working, earning our own money, and being independent, it doesn’t actually follow that formula. Even for someone who lives for his or her profession, it still doesn’t follow that formula. Working for our future requires a lot and it’s not easy. And because it’s not easy it tends to get burdensome whether you love your job or not. Now the tendency is we go looking for something to distract us. We want something that’ll keep us from thinking whatever stress we’re facing.

People around you can also bring the same amount of stress. And sometimes there is this need to get away from them. It’s not because of toxic relationships or even strain in the relationship, sometimes you just see them to much that you also need a break. A change in scenery.

Now that is out. I guess you now have an idea of real reason of my stay. Buuuuut, just in case you missed it, let me elaborate.

Actually, my job doesn’t require that much from me (yes, I’m lucky like that). And I’m lucky that I have a community as my support group. So, on the surface everything looks fine, right? I have an okay job that pays, and I have people surrounding me. But that’s just it, sometimes these normal things can be a burden too.

Lately, for some unknown reason, I feel so vulnerable and on the verge of exploding. I don’t know, it’s kind of hard to explain, but what used to be a simple problem, it ballooned into something that’s a bit difficult for me to handle. Talking to people is helping me, I guess. But, for me, it’s not enough. There’s just too much pent up emotions building up inside me. And I know I should write about it (like how I used to) but like I mentioned in my Sunday Currently series, I’m in a writing slump.

So, I turned to an activity that allows me to shift my focus instead. I guess you could say I found another outlet. And that is dragonboat paddling.

I don’t know but in that span of 1 hour at the Manila Bay, it’s so easy to forget about the things that drag me down and concentrate instead on my paddling technique. And the amazing thing here is that, while training, it doesn’t allow me to drift off and think of anything else. Training for this sport forces me to concentrate and think and breathe dragonboat instead.

Funny thing is, for every stroke I make, it feels as if I’m one step closer to totally shedding myself from my problems.

But reality check. I know I cannot run away from the things that stress me out or all my problems, basically. I’m fully aware of that. The beautiful thing here is that, dragonboat paddling gives me at least an hour or two a chance to take a break and to keep me from ripping my hair out. Because with the things going on with me, it’s hard to stay put and let things be; it’s unproductive and not helpful.

So, does this all make sense? Apart from the fact that I’ve already created some kind of a friendship with my teammates, I do this for my well-being. And to keep me sane.

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