So, last Sunday was the 1st leg of the PDBF (Philippine Dragon Boat Federation) regatta, aaaaand it was a disaster (to say the least). Although, I don’t want to discredit anyone, because I’m sure there are a few who said that they did well despite the race results, it wasn’t exactly the best performance we had.
First and foremost, I want to blame the water condition. Though, it was a fine Sunday morning, it was too windy. Even with the sun high up, it wasn’t exactly warm. So, since it’s windy, you know what that means for us paddlers. No still water, the water current will be strong, and it’ll be a challenge to keep the boat straight. However, just because the water condition suck big time, didn’t mean the race will be postponed. The show must go on after all.
So, anyway, it was a challenge. I, especially, thought that there will be a lot of struggle on my part. And there was. I won’t go into detail but let’s just say it didn’t bring any desired result. And, unfortunately, it brought something a little unexpected from my character.
Basically, Sunday’s race was a splash of reality for me.
If there’s one thing I’ve learned from that experience, it was “your character and attitude will define your performance.”
Pride took over the system for a while and it sprung its ugly head in the time of defeat. It sounded ironic but that was how I saw it after getting beaten in the race. I thought I could do better if I was given another chance.
But that’s just it, I wasn’t given anything. In fact, it almost felt that I was pushed aside. And from being, you know, casted away, my mind was filled with thoughts that I never knew I could conjure.
Though, I’m fully aware of my capabilities and limitations, I let that small amount of pride in me to take over. And since I felt ao comfortable in the company of these ladies, I let myself become complacent; thinking that I could depend on them to push me. It’s a team effort, after all.
But I’ve come to realize that my performance shouldn’t be dependent on my teammates. It kind of didn’t make any sense, but I gradually learned that I have to focus on my own performance in order to contribute to the team.
With these learnings and realizations, I was reminded to be humble. There will always be someone who is going to be better than I am. And the best thing that I could do is to learn from them. There is always something new to learn.
The whole experience was a wakeup call. And I was literally doused with water to let me know my position. So, after some self-reflection, I needed to make some kind of a restart and adapt a more positive attitude. After all, it’s a sport that is meant to be enjoyed as a whole team.
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